Choices

I remember these books that I use to read when I was in elementary school. I have no idea who wrote them, but they were interactive. The choices you made within these books determined the outcome - whether your character faced death or got away.

This afternoon I was reminded of those books. How many of us have sat and pondered what might have been. I personally would love to go back to age 15/16 - to my walk with Christ. I feel like I've lost so much with the things I've gone through and the choices I made. I wonder what my life would've been like had I continued with that particular path. Sometimes you just have to thank God for unanswered prayers. But at the same time, I miss my life and schedule as it reflected with God and church. I was teaching Sunday School, BTS & Discovery. I was over the Youth Ministry and the Children's Choir. I wrote the devotionals for the church bulletins each week. I was secretary of the WMA and Youth Council. Needless to say, my nose was always in a Bible. Although a lot of my personal life I do not miss, I believe I miss being in constant communion with God.

My life is so hectic now, that I hardly find the time to write anymore. I don't study like I use to, nor read like I use to. I find that I end up praying myself to sleep and that's no relationship. Whereas I was active in church, now that I no longer have a church home, I'm lost there, too. I remember being apalled at the thought of a curse word. Now it just seems like just another word. Dating scenes change; priorties shift; style merges; compromises are made.

Choices sometimes lead us down a darker path; and one we may not like. But one good thing about God, He always forgives and is faithful to set our path straight once again. No matter how many bad choices we make, His mercy is always available. I pray my way back to the type of relationship I had with God in my teens. I know that progress relies solely upon me. That's a choice and a commitment.